Karma.

Readers, I have come to a realization, yet another one, and I feel it to be so tautological, that i burst out of embarrassment to make it apparent. However, this realization must be revealed, as I fear it would be impossible to carry on in our talentless author/literate reader relationship if I assume this realization to be a given.

This realization will allow me to post much more comprehensively, much more freely than I have before, it will allow me to explore ideas from a light that has hitherto dimmed upon my id and understanding. Readers, it is not easy for me to post what I post, and given the lackluster quality of my writing, I should feel nothing short of ashamed for admitting it. However, all, well most, of my posts to this date have been thoroughly self conscious, self conscious of how outspoken I am in posting what I post, writing what I write, thinking what I think; and it strikes a deathblow in my heart and mind every time I construct a sentence that is evidently wrong - or fallacious - as it often leads to the demise and pitfall of my argument.

But I come to this realization that seems to put everything into clarity; my readers, this is a blog. Specifically, this is my blog. And as a result of this, you will only be reading my opinions [unless I snip an article]. What does this mean? You will only be reading about what I think, about me. I often ponder about what to write, but often immediately cease a train of thought when it strikes me as an issue that plays on sociological factors.

Readers, I hate sociology, I hate and loathe everything about it. Why? Because there isn't an aspect in sociology, that can't be understood from a hybrid of two other fields of study; either that or what it claims appears to be very evident. For this reason, I call sociology the study of "no shit". I mean come on, high school education in differing areas and its correlation with pricing? That's just economics. Troubled youth in society? That's just psychology and a bit of biology and philosophy.

For this reason, I try to steer all my posts away from sociological issues. But then I apply my realization - I don't have to apply it to sociology, I can just apply it to myself, and you will be reading my ideas, as I see them for myself, not as how I see them with regard to everyone else. You will be reading my thoughts and ideas on reactions of other people, but I will strive to keep it away from a sociological standard.

tl;dr readers, I will only be posting from a personal first person understanding and nothing else. I will no longer present ideas from a sociological issue that I find so abhorrent to read. Because really, any person can come up with a theory in sociology and due to a lack of demarcation on the theory, it can never be proven wrong, due to the simple "fact" that the theory can chop and change to always be correct. So fuck sociology.

This brings me to today's topic: Karma.

The way I see it, karma is just a religious term for Sir Isaac Newton's Third Law of Motion.

"Every action is accompanied by a reaction of equal magnitude but opposite direction."

In terms of living our lives, this basically means:

Live well and live generously, and you shall be rewarded with equal amounts of wellness and generosity respectively.

or.

Fuck someone's shit up and expect your shit to get fucked up.

But honestly, this is a cop out, it's bullshit. It's people making excuses for the nasty shit that happens in their life, or it's mock modesty for the good shit that happens in their life.

At it's worst, Karma is just a horrible culture friendly means of compensation. "Damnit, I knew I shouldn't have sped through that red light, Karma's gonna get me." No it fucking won't. Shit happens in life, and one has just got to accept it, and let go of all these fucking ideas like Karma trying to reassure us that we deserve whatever we are dished out, that whatever happens to us meant a reaction to something we did prior in life. But really, this looks to me like nothing but meager attempts to reassure oneself that life will get better, that one's suffering is over now, that one can live life like a clean slate without shit happening. Wrong, life is chancy, and life is shit, and one just has to accept life as one dosage of suffering after the next. One has just got to accept life as randomly rewarding, as a pain in the fucking arse; and that there is absolutely nothing you can do to make it better. Give a million dollars to charity, and let's see if that bus will slow down as you're crossing the street.

Ultimately, the bus won't slow down, because there is nothing, no higher deity, no greater system, that will reward your generosity with the saving of your life. We are alone, we must stand tall, we must stand strong if we are to survive in this world.

At it's best, Karma is just a way of dealing with shit in one's life, a way of finding meaning in one's life. And here's where the whole absurdity comes into play. Because readers, there is no meaning to the shit that happens in your life. Because life is random, life is chancy. Life does not have any inherent or intrinsic meaning. You are born an evolved fetus with your heart pumping blood around your body, and you die when your heart stops pumping blood around your body. That's it. You do not die because you were caught by death, you do not die because an almighty deity has spited your existence. You die because shit happened. It may not be your fault, it may be your fault, but in the end, only you had control of it, not karma. You only got hit by the bus because you chose to cross the road for whatever reason.

You are the change in your world, you will need to be strong when you are required to be. You will need to stand strong when you are required to be, and quite often, you will find yourself standing alone. Fuck Karma, fuck compensation, fuck salvation, you don't need it. It doesn't fucking exist. Those things are only there as a form of enslavement by the majority, enslavement and false hope. In the end, there is no hope for you in this life, there is no salvation, there is only chance, and there is only chaos.

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In other news, I am leaving for Vietnam tomorrow morning, and while I will be regularly logging on to the web and blogging more often, I want to say, that I am going to miss all of you guys who read this, more so those who I regularly see in real life, whether they are in school, or out of school. I'm going to miss you guys. Have a lovely break everyone <3.